A very strange and unexplainable work dilemma has occurred. I say occurred on Wednesday evening because, as far as my fate is concerned, I’m done.

One thing I always pride myself on is making decisions. Sometimes you make decisions as a leader or manager before properly considering them. You trust your gut. Maybe I was lucky and when I went balls-in on a decision it worked out well. Sometimes it didn’t work, but if it didn’t I did what I always did, particularly in college… improvise until it worked. You can improvise a bad decision into a full 360 degree turn until no one noticed you’ve back tracked.

This week feels like a lot of influential leaders around me didn’t understand what they were doing, why they were doing it or what the repercussions of their actions would mean. In my case there is a heavy chance that the repercussions of decisions made about me (which are not all that awful on a person level…) will negatively influence the business in quite a drastic and effective manner. I already see this happening and it’s been one day since the changes took place. I can’t go into detail on this.

I’m good to go, but the decisions made are some that affect me, but others moreso. There are others who are displaced in ways that would horrify onlookers. The legal ramifications would be huge if taken upon properly, to the point of breaking the company. Not in two. But in billions of pieces.

My point being that there’s no shame in knowing you’re wrong. There’s even less shame in saying you don’t know what to do – and to seek advice, even from those in the eye of the storm.

A friend mistakenly used the phrase “alone in a king sized bed” (it was mistakenly mis-understood by me as a metaphor, but was actually a description of my friends’ actual physical situation!) which rings true in every sense right now. Sometimes making tough decisions – hiring, firing, what to do, the future, the past, etc. – can feel like being in a huge bed that affects everyone around out, but you’re alone in it. Sometimes it’s fine to bring close personal assistants into that bed.

In the case I’m vaguely detailing, this king sized bed was very much left to one person. I feel for this person as their decisions were not made with ease. They were very much the opposite of what I would have done had I been faced with the same choices… however if they turn out to work (for who?) then I’ll eat my own words. However, I think my track record and convictions are to be trusted as gutturally as the ideas that fueled the decisions and desires to make my professional record burn so hard in the first place. With that in mind, I think any decisions made this week were the wrong decisions. No doubt about it, straight away the difference is noticeable and appear to be mis-informed and not articulated with the future in mind.

Even worse, with the devastating decisions going on, I feel more confident than ever that one day I can run a large business and make it work.